Seated on the usual metal-like, brownish seat at a 12-sitter table at 6th & Olive Street with the usual Venti Black Mango Tea Lemonade and grabbing its free Wi-Fi while typing a blog on a rainy and gloomy 4th of July. Yeah, happy holiday.
As the rain pours outside while people getting in and out of Starbucks tryin’ to get their discounted Grande frapp, I suddenly had a moment of reflection on what had happened a few days ago.
We had to decide what is right. We had to decide what is right in the eyes of God. We had to decide. Naka-ilang buntong hininga rin kami ha. Yeah, we had to set ourselves free. Free from anything we have now. Free from what we are now and go back of who we were before – good friends.
It didn’t work? Nah. It was. Yet, there were some things we can’t control. There are things I, personally, can’t understand why it’s happening. I have full of hopes – for us.
Long Distance Relationship a.k.a. LDR is a tough thing. I thought it will just be easy. Not! It will never be easy. LDR with no communication won’t work. LDR nga na may means of comms minsan hindi nag-wowork yung totally wala pa kaya.
Most of the time, the right thing to do is the best decision you could ever make even if your happiness is at stake. Sacrifices. Maybe we’re not meant for each other. Maybe we are but it’s not yet the right time. I don’t know.
Yeah, it really hurts. Good news is that I still feel that I am human – I do have a heart of flesh. As the sky cries, so do I. As I feel my tear glands works its way of putting tears in my eyes, all I could think of is God’s grace. Grace. Grace of not letting myself do things that will hurt me – drinking, bar hopping, shopping, etc. Ha! This is truly amazing Grace. God continually assures me in the book of John,
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. -John 14:27
God assures me that He will bring peace in our hearts with the decision we made. I believe and I am hopeful that this too shall pass.
Nothing is permanent only God. As I accept the reality that it already ended last Friday (July 1 CT, July 2 Manila Time), I should also embrace the reality that greater things are yet to come. I may not know what is in store for me in the next few months and years, all I hold on is the fact that God’s plans are the best. There’s no other option but to TRUST in His timing.
I am thankful that Jesus truly loves me and that’s all that matters. 🙂
I am still hurting and moving on but I know this shall pass. Jesus heals. 🙂
I am thankful for my family and friends for the encouragement they generously give. I couldn’t ask for more.
God is good. All the time!